I am not lazy~~~~~

I am very disappointed these days. Because I think I didn't show good attitude towards my study......I didn't want to do the homework...I spent all the night watching movies...........Though I know it's wrong, I cannot control my behaviour...... And because of these, I get angry easily these days....... Sometimes I just spend nearly 1 hour in the toilet, thinking and thinking....A long period of gloomy introspection.....

I am really worried about myself. I don't know what to do...... I don't want to be like this any more.......... I am April~~~~The happiest person in the world...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Why???Why???Why????

Aiya~~~~Going to die liao.......Who can help me ~~........